Yeshu Tu hai mahan
Welcome to the final day of this series, where each day I shared the heart and meaning behind one of my songs. Today, I close the journey by sharing the story behind my latest song, Mahan.
This is the first song I’ve written since our son, Zac, passed away a year ago. In fact, it’s the first song I’ve written since he fell ill in December 2020. For five long years, the well of inspiration felt completely dry. While I co-wrote a few songs, featured on some projects, translated a couple, and released older recordings, I could not create anything genuinely new and fresh, and my ability to write had vanished.Of course, this was partly because the care for Zac was so all-consuming, day and night, that I didn’t have time to sit down and write, but the problem ran deeper than that.
All of a sudden, everything I had known and believed about God, the entire foundation of my faith, was shaken because of this storm we found ourselves in.
Before Zac fell sick, praising God came naturally; my heart overflowed with gratitude for all He had done. But when our lives were plunged into a nightmare, praise became painfully complicated. How do you lift your voice to a Healer who hasn’t healed? Or to a Protector who didn’t protect? I found myself at a literal loss for words.After Zac passed away, we entered a profound season of mourning. Yet even in that darkness, I began to see how unfailingly faithful God had been throughout our journey. How truly blessed we are to know that our son now rests with Jesus, free from pain, free from suffering, embraced in eternal peace.Words of praise started welling up from within me again and turned into a song: Mahan.
A testimony to how great and unchanging our God is. Our circumstances might prevent us from seeing it at times, but His greatness never ceases. I encourage you to end this week by praising God through this song!
